10.19.2008

Desire

Friends, many of you have been asking about my journey. I am still at a loss as to answer most questions.

A lot of thought and change has begun to take place in my life during and after my 40days. I had so much time alone, in my car driving for thousands of miles, camping for several nights (though less than I wanted to), while sitting on the beach watching sunsets and in a camp chair looking at mountains. Though I was busier than I thought I would be, I was also cut off from much of the world that usually surrounds me!

That being said, I am still learning to be still as God wants me to. It is so hard in this world we live in to just be.

I absolutely cherished the time I had with Him. Some things He and I shared, such as His Creation were an absolute thrill. Other things we shared such as heart wrenching conviction not so much a thrill but much needed.

I am struggling with some decisions I feel Him calling me to make and I am absolutely ecstatic about others.

Some of these decisions include changing my lifestyle as I knew it before my trip. Surely there will be relationships that are affected and I do not want anyone to be offended though I know I have already offended one or two people. Please know that these changes are decisions made by the prompting of the Spirit in my heart and they do not come easily for me.

I choose to live for Christ. I desire to SERVE Him above all else. I don't know what else to say right now, other than my heart is absolutely overflowing with His love while breaking for the decisions to be made. Pray for me and know I love yall because of His love for me!!!

"And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength. And you must commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these commands that I am giving you today." Deuteronomy 6:5-6

1 comment:

Anita said...

am and will be praying for you... I know that you will let Him guide you, even though you might not understand what is going on... just stay close to Him. Love you!! :)