freedom...

OK, so it has been quite a while since I have blogged and I am at a friend's house who is having a Halo 3 party...a new video game that is out...and I am here to socialize, which isn't happening since everyone is playing the game...so I decided to blog...

Anyhow...I am really striving right now not to complain or "belly ache" about how my life is going...the tears are flowing which actually feels great and I am absolutely striving to find some bit of wisdom or comfort...I know my Father is here and I know that He is totally strengthening me but life just stinks tonight you know?

I actually have good and bad things that have happened today and as I wrote the last bit, I know it was my Father that brought the following bit to mind! :)

So, I was at my grandma's tonight (my dad's mom) for dinner. Well that side of the fam is very liberal and they in no way want anything to do with religion and have no concept of what a relationship with my Father is about...either that or they blatantly choose not to have one. So, I was sitting on the couch with my uncle and we were watching football and he began asking me about China...I had the chance to discuss with Him the things that I would be doing and more importantly the reasons.

My grandpa was in WWII and earned a bronze star while there. He served the US postal service for over 25 years after that and was pretty high up though I am not sure of his actual title. My family absolutely places him on a pedestal and we all are just proud of where he has been and how he has served. I am VERY proud to have my last name because of Him...

I say all of that to tell you that God led me to relate what I was going to be doing in China to my grandpa. My grandma has been kind of discouraging in my preparation and coming move to China and she says that I don't appreciate the government or the freedom that we have...

I was able to tell my uncle today that I DO appreciate the freedom I have here....but what I appreciate and absolutely love more is the freedom I have in my Father. People in China don't know my Father and don't know the freedom that they can find in Him...They don't have the opportunities to know Him that we have here in the US. And I, more than anything just want to tell them how they can be free...

Glory to the Father for writing this blog because I totally got on to complain and wrote it exactly how the thoughts were coming to my brain...hahaha....even that last bit...the end.

Love ya'll!