My Inheritance

My dad died almost 5 years ago.

He left me a house, for which I am SOOO grateful! Well, I decided long ago that I want my life to be available for Jesus to use as He pleases, meaning, I don't want to be tied down by property or any other number of things that could have the ability to hold me back for His cause.

So, several years ago I sold my house. My paternal grandma apparently had issues with me selling the house. I could not have a conversation with her on the phone without her being negative about me and my decisions and life. She told me to "take care of your inheritance, it is all you're going to get." She would also make comments about my cousins and how certain ones were better than me because of the stage of life they were in. So, instead of putting up with the negativity, I eventually stopped calling her. I stopped for my own health and well being, however I kept in contact with her by sending letters, cards, etc. so that she would know what was going on in my life. I never received a call or card back. It was silent for about 2 years, maybe a little more.

February 2nd was her birthday. I sent her flowers, like my dad used to do, and I have done since he passed away.

The following day I actually received a call from her. She was thankful for the flowers yet she verbally told me she didn't do anything wrong and she was not going to apologize for any wrongdoing.

I have never been fully accepted by her, not that anybody in her life has. I don't think she has it in her to extend her acceptance to anybody, probably because she has never felt and or known acceptance herself.

Today the Lord hit me full force in the gut with His love for me...

When I doubt my decisions or if someone else doubts my decisions...I am reminded that I belong to HIM...

My inheritance on earth PALES in comparison to the inheritance I will receive in Heaven. I am SO thankful for HIS love. It is so much more than ANYONE on Earth can extend to any one of us...and it is impartial and perfect.

And remember that the heavenly Father to whom you pray has no favorites. He will judge or reward you according to what you do. So you must live in reverent fear of him during your time as “foreigners in the land.” For you know that God paid a ransom to save you from the empty life you inherited from your ancestors. And the ransom he paid was not mere gold or silver. It was the precious blood of Christ, the sinless, spotless Lamb of God. God chose him as your ransom long before the world began, but he has now revealed him to you in these last days.

Through Christ you have come to trust in God. And you have placed your faith and hope in God because he raised Christ from the dead and gave him great glory.

1 Peter 1:17-21 (NLT)


Shelli Littleton said...

I saw your sweet comment on my post on Beth's blog (LPM), and I just had to check out your blog! I can so relate with family issues. We just have to make the best decisions we can and hope people understand or love us anyway. Sometimes it just takes time; family is so hard sometimes!

Your blog is beautiful.

Amber said...

Thanks for stopping by Shelli! Hope everything is going well! BLESSINGS!

Living day by day for Jesus said...

Thanks for stopping by Shelli! Hope everything is going well!


Shanda said...

I had a grandmother much the same; legalistic and judgemental. My mother was so different but some of those tendancies passed down through her to my sister and me as well. I realized it when I did Beth Moore's Breaking Free. I am always aware and working on it. it is sad when we DON"T want to be like our grandmother!
PS I enjoy your blog.

Living day by day for Jesus said...

Thanks Shanda! I will stop by your blog in a bit as I am getting ready to leave for work...How did you find mine? Just curious...